Technically I was tidying but really I was rummaging through a cluttered cupboard in my home office. I like to think of this as my man-cave but in a small house in central London it’s more like a man-cupboard. The rummage produced a list. Now to he clear, I like lists – a lot because:
- They help me keep on top of work.
- Stop me forgetting things.
- And allow me the joy of putting a little tick next to a completed job.
- Some people cross things out once they’ve completed a job but that carries a huge risk of not being able to see what you’ve done. No serious list maker would stand for that.
Christmas is the time of year when lists come into their own, with Santa’s Naughty & Nice list setting the Gold Standard, though to be fair to the fat, bearded chap I check my lists a great deal more than twice.
Inevitably, given the nature of this blog, the list I’m talking about is a little less full of festive fun. Prior to my prostate cancer diagnosis, I’d spotted blood in my urine which prompted me to go to the doc and set me off on my cancer capers.
What I’ve not mentioned before is that two years earlier I had also been peeing a small amount of blood and had sought medical help. On that occasion, following various tests, I was given the all clear though not surprisingly the question: ‘did they miss something?’ has popped into my mind on more than one occasion.
Which brings me to my uncovered list which were the notes I took at the time during a consult with a urologist at Guy’s Hospital.
- Benign cyst on left kidney.
- Enlarged Prostate. May cause problems in later life.
- No sign of tumour or cancer.
- Blood (in urine) probably caused by prostate.
- CT scan of kidney in case ultrasound had missed anything, ruled out cancer.
- Blood should go away, can take drugs for prostate, but these can have side effects.
- CT scan 3rd September at St Thomas’ Hospital.
So, what to make of that? Well I’m certainly no doctor, but it looks like they did all the analysis necessary though of course the enlarged prostate is the giveaway. I love the idea that it ‘might cause problems in later life’. I’m pretty sure I had in mind when I was 80 or 90 not just two years down the track. Unfortunately, it looks like the Unwelcome Guest had already made a booking.
I suppose if I have a criticism it is that I should have been put on what is called Active Surveillance and monitored more closely.
I’d forgotten I’d had the CT scan on 3rd September which is my birthday, but remember feeling deliriously happy when I saw the urologist for the last time and was given the good news.
Two years later after I’d started again on the unlovely round of tests, I remember telling Mrs Preen I had a strong conviction there would be no free pass this time. Unfortunately, I was right.
But let’s keep the doom and gloom at bay at this time of year. I’m feeling fine and the radiotherapy side effect, needing to pee all the time, is gradually going away which means I’m sleeping more and feel less tired.
Given the nature of this post, I guess I’ve got to finish with a list, so I’d like to shower seasonal goodwill on all of the following:
- Those who have their own Unwelcome Guest.
- Loved ones of those who do.
- Friends and family who worry about me.
- And anyone else who’s along for the ride.
Happy Christmas, Happy Holidays and Happy New Year. I’ll be back at the start of our next solar orbit.
2 thoughts on “I’m making a list, I’m checking it twice”
1. A long strange trip it has been.
2. Ain’t over yet.